I did something stupid. I gave him and text him. And of course I didn’t get a response. It just drove me crazy all day. Why leave me on open but then doesn’t message me. He claims we’re a couple but he won’t act like it. It’s been hail on my mental health all day. It’s not hard for someone to tell me they’re not interested but instead, he don’t do anything. I just wish he’d be upfront with me and quit wasting my time. It’s embarrassing, breaking down and finally giving in and texting the person I wanted to get left on delivered. And then he wonders why I don’t feel like we are a couple. He doesn’t act like it.

And what’s worse I have been offered a part-time job at Sheetz, but I’m afraid I’m gonna have to turn it down as it’s only part time. My manager said he can get me full-time at another store after my training, but I don’t wanna wait too long and there’s no guarantee I’ll get the full-time job after training. I didn’t realize how hard jobhunting was. I thought after one interview I’d be sealed, but apparently that’s not the case. It’s a lot more to job hunting and interviewing and getting hired than I thought. The place where I am now only pays $11.50 full-time and it’s not enough.