Jerks

I hate it when the guy I’ve been seeing goes quiet and leaves me on open. At first, he left me on delivered now he left me on open. It’s so aggravating.

I look at my phone wishing he would text. I get Texas, but they’re from other people and they’re not from him. I’ve tried to keep this from causing me torture. I wish he’d make time for me. I know for a fact, he don’t care as his actions tell me last time I went and seen him. It had been a while and he embrace me with the biggest hug he’s ever gave me and help me. I was so shocked.And then he wondered why I was so surprised and I was like well you don’t ever express feelings for me. 

I also hate when he looks at my stories on Snapchat but keeps me on delivered or opened. Yeah, I know he’s a selfish jerk. Why I like him I don’t know. I’ve always liked selfish jerks. Guess it’s because I was raised around jerks. I just need to let the past go and heal from being with jerks.