I'm turning 41 this month. I feel like I'm too old to do anything. In my youth all I did was focus on relationships, nothing else. Now soon to be 41 after being used and having broken my heart at least 12 times, I'm trying to change for the better. The good news is in my youth I stayed away from drugs, drinking, smoking, didn't have kids, and didn't get married instead I did get into fitness and healthy eating at 21 and kept it going all these years and got into meditation, mindfulness, and deep breathing exercises so at least I did do some good things but having my whole world revolve around relationships toke a lot of positive things I could have done in my youth away. Now I'm trying to find ways to better myself. Trying to save up some money and doing some self-love for myself since I've always been the type to beat myself up all my life and put myself down. Always been a ppl pleasure always putting others first and not thinking of myself. Always thought of or was chasing some guy who just act like he was interested in, but he was just using me for money or sex. I’m starting to think of myself and let go of that feeling of being too old. I know emotions are just emotions and not facts. No matter my age, I want to do things that improve my life. This is life and improving myself is what my life is going to be about.